When you become so invested within something, a series, a book, a comic, anything, there is always some inkinlg in the back of your mind that longs to come out and become a part of the fandom. A character, a setting, an alternate universe, but more often than not a character.
Sometimes it's more than one that come out of the crevices of your mind and become realised through thought and care.
For me it was multiple characters I made within the Homestuck fandom. It started with Thiija, my most original character. After her was Deyria. Becomeing so attatched to Dey, Thiija got lost within my mind and she separated off inot my fourth character, Richer, who I created after Mathis my second character. Now, my fourth was Sarian. Sarian has grown more than a lot of my other characters.
Working with your character allows you to know them, to work with them and get into their minds, developing them further than they had when you originally made them.
At the start Sarian was a rather two dimensional character with garrish pink blood (trolls within the Homestuck universe have different colored blood) and a rather shit attutude. Most would see this a an okay character that would be good enough for the fandom, but I didn't see it as such. I saw him as unfinished, 2D, and rather on the border of being a mary sue. At the time I really didn't care too much about his blood color, only going off of things that I liked. But I realised that It bothered me to know that some people would have something against his color as it generally would not show up in the hemospectrum, the range in which blood colors can be in.
I really began to flesh him out and give him depth of character and personality. I created an entire history for him and his ancestor, Vantaris, as well as where his story will go on to. Even now as I continue to use Sarian, I am still working with his character, still fleshing him out as I go along.
Since his craetion Sarian has become a complex character with his own internal strife and battles that drive him to do certain things and act certain ways. He has become a blue blooded sea-dweller, meaning that he is incrediblt rare and a genetic abberation. This doesn't mean that he's a mary sue, genetically speaking its possible to happen just not very often. With this being an abberation but still part of the ruling hierarch species, he was preyed upon and his childhood was a mess. Which drove him to become hard and cold and ambitious to become better than all of the people he knows and to be seen as not the abberation that he is but as the high blooded seadweller that he is and longs to be. But on the inside he is still longing to be accepted and to be kind and nice to others but he can't do it. Both of fear for what he will be seen as and the morals and rules ingraned into his mind that he cannot break easily because it was what he was taught as a child. In actuality he is completely reluctant to harm anyone and prefers to use bolas as his weapon, which only harm if you really mean it to. Even then bolas only go as far as to break bones and disable rather than harm. He doesn't show this pasifistic mentality, prefering to show himself as a fighter and a troll who kills without remorse. He can do it he just prefers not to. In a way this comes from his ancestor, Vantaris, who was notable for torture and ruthless information gathering. Within this sadistic love of inflicting pain Sarian gets a rush from it but gets a deep feeling within himself as to why he is doing this. More often than not he doesn't listen to that feeling, more often than not that feeling dies within him and is rekindles at another time. Within his persona he has an internal battle with himslef and what right and wrong is. But it is a loosing battle with what he his taught and what is is hown nature than what could be seen as morals.
Within his hard personality he pushes people away. Creating his own void of hate and resentment but also keeps alive his desperate longing for acceptance.
Sarian is still a character continually being worked on and he is far from done. I'm sure by later he will have progressed and changed as a character.
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